Recently, I was verbally attacked while standing in front of my own door listening to a neighbor vent about two other neighbors. (“I can be your best friend or your worst enemy; the choice is yours!”) They attempted to involve me in their web of drama. Now I understand why I’ve never had successful friendships with women, they are nothing but drama queens. And then I learn they are the complexes’ most notorious drama queens. Even my Golden Girls, in NY, accused me a being a drama queen and distanced themselves from me, only to realize they are the ones with drama, not me. I live drama-free and if it’s brought to my door, I take care of it immediately. Problem solved!

However, through this inconvenient mess, God revealed something else to me that I don’t like. Why me? He has been using me for years to reveal people’s deepest secrets and bring them to light. Why me? Why? I don’t like it any more than you people do! So, if you have deep secrets you want to keep hidden, stay away from me and don’t cause any problems with me or God will reveal everything through me. What happened to ‘love covers a multitude of sins’? The more I love people, the more they abuse me. I’m done!

I have always gone out of my way to help you people, take care of you people, be good to you people, but not anymore more! I do not like people anymore. I tried to force myself to be sociable again but not now. I have no use for you people! I will no longer go out of my way to help or listen to anyone. You can say my heart has grown cold, but I tell you, it has not. God is protecting me from you animals! My heart will remain tender, zealous, righteous and faithful to God. After my grandparents passed away and I was left naked and vulnerable in this world, God told me that if I will always take care of His people, He will always take care of me. I have obeyed and done what He commanded. I will continue, regardless.

The only thing I have to say is, “I don’t like you!”

So, in conclusion, know, from now on, that if I am nice to you, it is because God commanded me to be and no other reason. I do nothing of my own accord or because I want to. My life has never been my own to control and do as I want, never and now I realize that. I don’t understand why I am different and held to a higher standard than everyone else, but I am and I accept that now. If I approach you for any reason, it is because I am commanded to do so. Otherwise, leave me be in my little corner of this wicked and wretched world!

“The evil one is coming, and he has no part in Me. … He opened not His mouth.” “For he knew that the chief priests had handed Him over because of envy.”