No Hope for Humanity!

I challenge Trump, every person and every country that claims to be ‘Christian’ to live according to God’s law and His word. You cannot separate God and State and expect things to run smoothly. How has it worked so far since y’all separated God from His land? Is anyone happy other than the elite living life on their yachts or golf courses? Me, personally, I’m tired of everything; your hypocrisy, your lies, your deception, your treachery, your insults, your criticism, your judgments, your greed, your prideful entitlements. When I leave this world, I’m taking Satan and all his little minions with me!


THE REAL PROBLEM: The world has taken God out of EVERYTHING!


THE CHALLENGE: Live the life your faith teaches you to live.

Unite God back to His land (Church and State)

Massive revivals including baptisms IN rivers

Everyone MUST sell what they DO NOT use. (all collections, all property, all improper clothing, all non-essential jewelry) Keep only what is needed to survive (ex. one home, one vehicle, food, proper clothing). Profits given to the church for God’s people. (If we take care of each other, God will always take care of us.) God’s church is supposed to be our government, not crooked politians that dictate how they think we should live! Last I knew they were not God; therefore, they do not have that authority. You can argue with me all you want that God put them in that position and quote scripture regarding this, but I know (from experience) that Satan blesses people too.

Acknowledge and observe Saturday as God’s given Sabbath. Work six days and rest on the seventh. Entire country shuts down every Saturday, with the exception of Healthcare. Jesus taught people that healing and those in need of a physician deserve continual care, even on the Sabbath. Preparations for the Sabbath is done on Fridays, no different than when Jesus walked this earth.

Begin each week the same way we do now, church services on Sunday mornings, family gatherings or events afterwards, helping a neighbor and football.

Education in God’s law and word should be MANDATORY and taught in ALL schools. And the teaching of evolution banned! God’s people need to know His law and how He says to live daily life according to His word.

Only God’s leaders should be ordained to marry people. If a ceremony is not performed in the eyes of society for all to acknowledge and celebrate, it should not be legal or accepted. God DOES NOT permit same sex marriage so why should His people?

Any state that does not comply with God’s commandments should be exiled from the country (church states) and should be forced to fend for themselves. Should any person from said states commit a crime against God’s country, the death penalty should be enacted to eradicate God’s enemies. If you are one of God’s people living in an exiled state, you can contact whichever church state you choose and a helping hand to bring you home will be extended.


Will you walk away sad and depressed like the rich young fellow did when he asked Jesus how he could have eternal life?


I hear a lot of “Christians” talk about what they think is right and what they think is wrong with the world and society today. New flash… WE are what’s wrong with the world! Everyone’s right in their own eyes. Everyone’s right from their own perspective. What is normal? Who is normal? Why are there so many psychiatric problems in today’s generation? Why is everyone on some kind of medication? What is autism? Where did that even come from? Who is responsible for creating all these diagnoses? If Jesus conquered Satan and death, then what’s going on in the world today? Someone is lying and someone is wrong!

I have lost all hope for humanity! I look forward to burning in hell with the rest of the rotting flesh on earth because that’s where everyone is headed. For you people that think you know the end times, think you’re a scholar on end times, think you’re a professional on end times… YOU ARE WRONG! You don’t know jack… and neither do I but I can tell you that whatever you think about the end times is wrong. Like Jesus said, only His Father knows, no one else.

The USA was founded and created for religious freedom, founded and created by Christians who wanted and believed they were doing God’s will. The United States of America was founded and created as a “UNITED” country, God and State. Trump wants to ‘Make America Great Again’, UNITE (bring back) God to His land and it will be. (News Flash: Trump, you don’t actually control America, the world, or even anything, but if your ego wants to think it does, Satan is more than happy to oblige you. How do you think you ended up where you are? Satan has blessed you greatly!) Right now, Satan is running this country (and this world) but God is in the process of taking it back!

If no one else will stand for God, I will! I feel Jesus’ pain every day. To make myself clear from now on, I DO NOT call or claim to be ‘Christian’. I said it before and I will say it again. If this is what Christianity is, I want NO part of it! I do not call or claim to be Muslim either. Nor am I Jewish, Buddhist, Hindu, or Atheist. I am who I am. I have said that long before I learned God wrote it in the Bible. I am God’s daughter and I believe in ALL of the prophets (yes, that includes Muhammad (SAW)).

My bitterness today comes from lack. Lack of essentials. Lack of gas in my Jeep. Lack of human compassion. Lack of human empathy. Lack of affection. Lack of acceptance. Lack of truth. Lack of human love. I sit here with a fridge full of groceries while I read a post this morning asking for help with food that I can definitely help with but due to lack of gas, I am prevented. I am angry because I can’t help anyone because humanity has stripped me of everything. I am angry because I don’t understand anything. I am angry because I have no food for my pets. I am angry because I borrowed money and it still wasn’t enough to cover everything. I am angry because people don’t wanna do their jobs. I am angry because I am too embarrassed to ask for help because I’m sick and tired of being criticized, judged, insulted and rejected. I am angry because “Good Christians” stole my son, poisoned him against me and have forced me to live with it while they continue to reject me on a daily basis. I am angry because I have no toilet paper, no Puffs for my allergies and no paper towels. I am angry because my husband is in the hospital instead of out here working and helping me survive. Yes, I am very bitter today. This menopause might just kill me after all because I feel like walking into my Father’s house and flipping it upside just like Jesus did! I feel His frustration with humanity. I feel His pain of being rejected and despised. I feel His agony in trying to make people understand. Even Jesus questioned His human emotions when He hung on that cross. “Father, Father, why have you forsaken Me?” I feel forsaken in every way He did yet I know my Father is still here, just like He did. Do not assume to know the contents of my heart.

โ€œWoe to you, scribes and Pharisees, hypocrites! For you are like whitewashed tombs which indeed appear beautiful outwardly but inside are full of dead menโ€™s bones and all uncleanness.”

Matthew 23:27 NKJV

For those of you that think God doesn’t punish people, again, you are wrong. For those that think Satan doesn’t bless someone, again, you are wrong. I have watched a “Christian” family be blessed for the last 27 years for stealing my son and ruining our family in God’s name. And they think they are going to heaven! I’ll see them in hell along with every other human being. For those of you that think God is only good and He is not capable of evil, to you I say, you have that right! God is only good and when someone needs to be punished, He calls Satan in to do the job for Him. God will not prevent something bad from happening when He knows that His will and good will be the ultimate end result. Me, I’ll never see those end results in my lifetime. Like Moses, I’ve seen the promised land, but I’ll never enter it because of my bitterness. But my Joshua will!

Again, I ask the question: What is normal?

Why Me?

Recently, I was verbally attacked while standing in front of my own door listening to a neighbor vent about two other neighbors. (“I can be your best friend or your worst enemy; the choice is yours!”) They attempted to involve me in their web of drama. Now I understand why I’ve never had successful friendships with women, they are nothing but drama queens. And then I learn they are the complexes’ most notorious drama queens. Even my Golden Girls, in NY, accused me a being a drama queen and distanced themselves from me, only to realize they are the ones with drama, not me. I live drama-free and if it’s brought to my door, I take care of it immediately. Problem solved!

However, through this inconvenient mess, God revealed something else to me that I don’t like. Why me? He has been using me for years to reveal people’s deepest secrets and bring them to light. Why me? Why? I don’t like it any more than you people do! So, if you have deep secrets you want to keep hidden, stay away from me and don’t cause any problems with me or God will reveal everything through me. What happened to ‘love covers a multitude of sins’? The more I love people, the more they abuse me. I’m done!

I have always gone out of my way to help you people, take care of you people, be good to you people, but not anymore more! I do not like people anymore. I tried to force myself to be sociable again but not now. I have no use for you people! I will no longer go out of my way to help or listen to anyone. You can say my heart has grown cold, but I tell you, it has not. God is protecting me from you animals! My heart will remain tender, zealous, righteous and faithful to God. After my grandparents passed away and I was left naked and vulnerable in this world, God told me that if I will always take care of His people, He will always take care of me. I have obeyed and done what He commanded. I will continue, regardless.

The only thing I have to say is, “I don’t like you!”

So, in conclusion, know, from now on, that if I am nice to you, it is because God commanded me to be and no other reason. I do nothing of my own accord or because I want to. My life has never been my own to control and do as I want, never and now I realize that. I don’t understand why I am different and held to a higher standard than everyone else, but I am and I accept that now. If I approach you for any reason, it is because I am commanded to do so. Otherwise, leave me be in my little corner of this wicked and wretched world!

“The evil one is coming, and he has no part in Me. … He opened not His mouth.” “For he knew that the chief priests had handed Him over because of envy.”

2026: The Future is Here!

I am happy and excited to announce that my editor is underway with her professional touch. 2026 will bring many new and exciting opportunities for HMRyan as an author and for Heather M Smith as a woman. My goal for 2026 is to have all completed work edited and published by the end of the year. My goal for the first half of 2026 is to get all completed work edited. My goal for the last half of 2026 is to publish, market, and organize book signings and fundraisers.

As a woman, my goal for 2026 is to reach the summit of Stone Mountain, NC. I reached the summit in 2019 before my back surgery, and I haven’t been able to reach it since. Until the temps warm up in the mornings, I plan to work on consistency with attending the YMCA every morning, Monday thru Friday, to workout. My gluttony has some added weight it needs to shed before bathing suit season.

I conquered depression and the pit of selfishness last year. This year I am ready to roar like a lion… “I am Woman! Hear Me Roar!” I have watched the world pass me by long enough. Now, I will get up and get moving. They can all watch me pass by while they stand still. I’ve had enough sorrow, enough self-pity, enough wallowing.

In 2024, God worked with me on Integrity. Last year, 2025, it was Discipline and Self-Control. This year, 2026, God says, “This year, your word is CONSISTENCY. I will teach you how to be consistent while you show integrity in a disciplined and self-controlled manner.” Immediately, I thought to myself… “Great! I failed the integrity test and the discipline and self-control test. What in the world makes Him think He can teach me all of them at once? The only thing I’ve ever been consistent at is hounding my son’s grandparents for the last 26 years. It’s true. I admit it!

“Behold, I do a new thing!” I’m not as eager as I probably should be, yet I am.

Just Released!


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Memoir of a Broken Soul is the 2025 edition of my poetry collection now available only on Amazon. Click below to order your copy today!

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